Screaming Love

Leona Lewis is on repeat on the IPod. I am determined to feel for my 'man' the type of love she is feeling for hers. Its not working. I can not bleed love. But I am crying. I am Screaming Love! No more strength left to bleed it out. No more strength left to pick up the pieces and paint on a happy face. No more strength to carry on this facade. I am screaming! Maybe then I will have conviced myself that these four years of my life have not been in vein. So I scream!

I don't feel that love... haven't in a long time. And now there are children invovled. Is it right to stay with him for that one reason. Would they resent me if they knew? Would they hate me? Would they not love me for not loving him?

I'm Screaming Love! Its got to be here somewhere!
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